Category Archives: trusting the Lord

Lost

Violence is evident all around us, no matter where we live. It happens that where I live, control is minimal, which makes Guatemala a more dangerous place to live. I have to use wisdom and be aware of what I am facing when I am out on the streets or highway. I’ve learned that there are places that aren’t safe for travel, and there are times that a person should not be out of their homes. Even during the day, I keep my darkened car windows rolled up to protect myself from someone putting a gun in the window to rob me.

Even with all of these precautions, I ended up in an unavoidable situation. My friend’s church had a special service that I wanted to attend. Her church was located on the opposite side of Guatemala City from where I lived. By the time we attended church and I dropped her off, it was 9:00 pm. Not a good time for a gringa to be out alone.

I took my usual route home and found that it had been blocked. I had to travel into an unfamiliar and opposite direction. I figured there had to be a way to get back from this one-way street. There had to be another street in the direction I wanted to go. However, one can travel for miles without any side streets off the main road. I kept going further away into unknown and darker territory. I saw a turn onto a two-lane and took it, but that didn’t take me back either. I found myself in another slum area with no streetlights. I did not know where I was! I had my cell phone, but if I called someone, I wouldn’t have a clue how to describe my location. No businesses or street signs existed anywhere. The only houses visible were not where one would stop and ask for help. Lord, you will have to direct me out of this, because I am lost. I saw a place where I could turn around in the road, and I did so, thinking it would be better to go back to where I first got lost. I took this curvy street, as I fought the panic feeling welling up inside of me. Lord, show me what I should do. I am in your hands. Finally, I saw a sign, the first one in all this time, and I recognized the name of the major street that I needed. I followed the arrow, but it didn’t seem to be going toward that street. I looked at the gas level, and it showed I had less than a quarter tank of gas. Please, Lord, if this isn’t right, show me where to turn. Then I looked up from this dimly lit street, and I saw the sweetest words—Nestlé. They glowed on the back side of the Nestlé Company building, and I finally knew my location. The front of the building sat along the street that would take me home.

I let out a deep breath, praised God for His goodness, and unclenched my teeth. I’m sure a mirror would show that I had aged five years. I thanked the Lord all the way home for guiding and directing me during such a frightful time. My trust in the Lord grew tremendously that night.

Trusting the Lord

I and others continued to counsel with Sara* about the advantages of her being adopted by a family in the States. This opened the strong possibility of a kidney transplant. It would certainly be life changing for this ill girl. I related to her being afraid of stepping into the unknown.

Teams often came to minister to the children of our growing orphanage and helped with the upkeep of the facilities. One day, Joanne received a reply from a couple in the States who were interested in adopting Sara. They came to the orphanage with a team, spent time with Sara, and went home feeling that adoption might work for them. Learning of this possibility, I felt motherly protectiveness well up inside of me. Not just anybody is going to be able to adopt her. We have to find the right people who will love her as we do. Joanne explained, “They will return to Guatemala and spend more time with Sara. They are seeking God’s guidance in this and have an understanding of how difficult it could be for her.” That will give me time to check them out too.

When the couple returned to Guatemala, they came to the orphanage and waited in my living room. Sara slowly walked through the doorway. When she saw the couple she screeched, “Darlene*!” and ran to the woman, throwing her arms around her. I lost control of my emotions and had to leave, so Sara wouldn’t see me crying. I went into my bedroom to get control. Is this the same girl who refused to show affection to people she hardly knows, the one who did not want to consider adoption? I knew what happened. God answered many prayers, and Sara connected with this couple. To me, this confirmed that she would become part of their family. God knew what I needed to see, in order for me to let her go with peace in my heart.

The next months were filled with phone calls to the States, so Sara could get better acquainted with this couple. I got to be involved in one of the most exciting parts of the transition. “Sara, how would you like to go to Disney World?” I asked. Sara perked up, and with an ear-to-ear grin, she yelled, “Yes!”

“We will fly to Orlando, meet with Darlene and Dennis*, and go to Disney.” We quickly made arrangements, including a temporary visa for Sara to leave Guatemala. I contacted my daughter, who worked for Disney, and she set the wheels in motion so that Princess Sara would be a special guest at Disney with her future parents. Seeing everything new through the eyes of this young girl, a child from the ghettos of Guatemala, excited me. We will never forget the memory of this trip, and it sealed Sara’s decision. She wanted to be adopted by these loving people and move to the US. Fear no longer dominated her thoughts. The quality time with these people made the difference.

The adoption process moved along quickly because of Sara’s serious medical condition. She moved to the States and became a part of this incredibly giving family. It wasn’t a coincidence that Sara’s new mother worked as an RN or that their church family helped support adopting families. The kidney transplant became a reality. God had many details all worked out. Through it all, Sara and I learned another great lesson about trusting the Lord. As a God of love, His plans are the best for each of His children. When we need help, He wants us to come to Him in trust and ask for His intervention, just as a young child does with his earthly father.

*Name has been changed.