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Strange Girl

CHAPTER ONE
Strange Girl

Deep in the recesses of her mind, Caty found a refuge where she hid from the world around her. It’s a mystery how long she sought an escape, but it became her secret place with walls that allowed nobody to enter. Shadow of His Wings Orphanage personnel had no idea what adventure awaited with this strange girl.

It began late one evening; the police came to the orphanage with an odd-acting child. They gave us the court order for her to stay with us, a girl with no name. About twelve years old, her eyes darted around the room like a wild trapped animal. I took her into my arms as she quivered and whimpered. After minutes of softly spoken words, I could feel her heartbeat slowing down, but she clung harder to my arm.

With my prodding and the house mother’s gentle pulling, she went upstairs for the routine clean-up. During this time for new girls, there would be notes taken of any scars, wounds, or physical signs that would alert us to her past situation. We needed documentation for the court of possible abuses a child might have endured before coming to Shadow of His Wings. Colonies of lice in the hair required extermination with designated shampoo followed by a proper body scrubbing.

After the girl had gone upstairs with the house mother, the children gathered around me. “What’s her name?” Lorena asked. “Why is she acting weird?” asked Josselin. “Is she on drugs?”

My head buzzed with similar questions. Where did this child come from, and what was her story? How could we minister to what she needed? What if we can’t take care of her?

“Kids, we don’t have any information about her and no name. Maybe she will tell us when she feels safe. Meanwhile, show her love and encouragement; we are here to help her. She shouldn’t be alone, so I’m asking you to take turns staying with her.”

The next day, the court secretary said the police record showed this child suffered sexual and physical abuse. They received a call from a shady hotel asking for the removal of a girl. They found her in a room, alone in women’s black lingerie, crouching on the floor. Someone dressed her, and the police brought her to Shadow.

Without any identification or contact information, her lack of communication left us clueless about this child. The girls asked her what her name was, but the response of sounds didn’t make sense. Finally, after listening to what she did say, the girls decided she should be called Caty.

We thought intellectual disability described her state of mind because she would say a few words that made sense while chattering nonsense. Caty imitated the girls by repeating one or two words. When I looked at her, I couldn’t see the characteristics of Down Syndrome, so I didn’t think this to be her problem. However, we did know this child had suffered much, and we needed to find out how we could help her mentally, physically, and spiritually.

The Lord said He would give us wisdom when we needed it. “Dear Lord, please open the floodgates of knowledge so we can help this damaged child.”

Someone tossed this life into the trash, but Caty deserved justice, security, and love. The path I saw ahead of us went into unknown territory while the learning curve rose sharply. Where to begin became the number one question in our minds.

Caty’s Refuge

With Caty in my arms that first night, my heart resonated with a deep desire to help this lost child. I wanted her to find her rightful place in life without the chains of the past holding her back. At that time, I didn’t know what or to what extent had afflicted Caty, but I knew that the enemy held her captive. The adults and children at the project felt the same way about her. So, as a team, we reached out to Caty in love and compassion, encouraging her to leave her secret place and enter the real world. However, we had no idea what investment would be required from each of us to see ground gained.
As you read Caty’s story, you will gain perspective into her life. Still, her story will also open an understanding of the lives of other children walking a similar path. Perhaps her story will encourage you to make a difference in such a child’s life. You can work with God, the Miracle Grower, by planting seeds in hearts and breaking the chains off the captives. May God open your eyes to the changes you can affect when you let His love flow through you to children who have become victims of a sinful world.
I will post chapters of Caty’s story each week.
Some of the names in this booklet have been changed to protect the person’s privacy.

Home In Our Hearts

New Home 2005

I walked into the large bedroom to wake the girls for church. Pretending to be asleep, giggles and slight movement of the blankets gave them away.

“Good Morning chicas.”

That opened the door to a chorus of Mama Carroll this and that. Astrid’s resounding voice described the frogs that sang all night. The excitement of being in their temporary home and a new town vibrated in all the bedrooms.

Questions entwined in my thinking. Would we be accepted into this Monjas community? Would the girls be subject to cruel remarks about being orphans or troublemakers? We would soon find out as we prepared for church on our first full day.

The other co-founder of James Project of Latin America moved to Monjas a year before we moved the children from San Cristobal. The building of a wall around the property needed to be complete before construction on the first duplex could begin. Joanne wanted to prepare the way for the Home as she met with individuals and shared the vision and goals of JPLA. She met some resistance.

“We don’t want problem kids moving into our area.”

“This will encourage gang activity.”

“There will be a negative influence on our children.”

It hurt to hear the thoughts of people who had never met the children. Our girls worked at being servants of the Lord. We determined to use opportunities for the citizens to view our kids in positive ways. Shadow’s girls reached out to others as they received ministery.

At Home 2018

Now, thirteen years later, I watched hundreds of people gathered in Central Park for supper. The thoughts from the past replayed in my mind as I viewed the scene below me. A team from the States sponsored a free community supper inviting all of Monjas. The group bought the food, paid to have it cooked, and served it. There were 15 local churchmen in orange shirts ready with Bibles and words of prayer for anyone with special needs. I saw community effort and received verbal thank-yous for the involvement of the Project in the community.

I perused the courtyard as Shadow girls helped organize the line, served food, carried full plates and drinks for moms with babies and the elderly. My heart burst.

James Project of Latin America became an essential part of the community in many ways. No longer misunderstood strangers, but members of Monjas allowed us to call it home in our hearts.

A Blessed Year

 

  We stood in the cool breeze shaking our heads. Didn’t the kids finish the school term a few weeks ago? We continued to ride the zip line of time and today was the first day at Liberty Christian School. The director, Carina Aguilar, took up the theme that the children were blessed to have an opportunity for education. That went over the heads of many. I thought about the freedom they inherited to be able to attend school. People paid for that freedom with their blood, sacrifice, and through tribulation. My prayers went up that the population present at this open ceremony would see and feel the depth of the word “blessed.”
Statistics show 54% of the Guatemalan population is below the poverty line. The literacy rate for those over 15 years of age is about 75%. Guatemala places the lowest overall in Central America. The students at LCS have the opportunity to change those statistics and make a difference in this country. They walk in the blessing for this chance to fulfill such a destiny.

 

                                 Teachers and Staff

                              Excited Kindergarteners